I went to my first follow up Gyn appointment last week. Dr Wild still thinks I should consider taking the anti depressant, Zoloft, which she said is the standard for baby blues and is a low dosage. But I don't want to take the medicine unless necessary. I guess how I handle sleep deprivation at this point will be the determining factor.
We also talked about breast pumping for milk. I told her about the limited supply that I'm producing and she recommended stopping pumping. Dr Wild said that while a woman is pumping, her body is in menopause mode, a contributor to the baby blue hormones. It will still take a month to get the ovary hormones to kick in, but at least I'm starting on that month wait now by discontinuing the breast pump.
Dr Wild won’t release me to normal activity until she does a pelvic exam in four weeks. Hopefully all goes well when I see her again, including the emotions... Which I do believe is getting more manageable. Just the fact that I was able to snuggle and sing with my son shows me that I’m enjoying the time with him, the quality time, not just the feed, burp and change time.